God's Private Army
I cannot believe how spiteful some 'Christians' behave. In itself their individual behaviour is not truly awful as our Lord preaches mercy, forgiveness and Love. However this does not give His followers license to do as they like, because they will be forgiven. Nor does it give a group of Christians the right to turn a blind eye to members behaving badly, because they must always be meek, mild & merciful. Nor is it ever right to get all self righteous and declare that the ends justify the means. Setting out to achieve something great for God and not caring about the mayhem caused by pursuing it should not be on any Christians agenda. If Christians are no better, indeed considerably worse in their behaviour than your average Atheist then what's the point in being one??
In my religion, anyone who treats someone else with complete indifference needs correction. Religion is about passion and not don't care. If everyone in a church is passionate about everything that occurs good and bad in their lives THEN that's a church that prays incessantly, reads its Bible and discerns the vision that God spreads before it. That's a church that dares not fail God! That's a church which transforms lives and people by being there. This Churches people are different and have lives which are attractive to others who like and appreciate the differences in them.
If people, outside of a church, decry what goes on inside it and say things like "Those people are awful they spend their time gossiping and slandering each other. See they even delight in individuals failings! And they have the nerve to tell us they are saved and we are not. Is it any wonder the churches are empty? I've never been to any church and I consider myself lucky I could of ended up just like them. Perish the thought!"
So what's the solution?
If you get your relationship right with God then you will not be on your own for very long. People will want to join you, in order to find Him. Many people are seeking Him, they are just looking in the all the wrong places.
Lastly, the idea you have to be clever to understand Christianity is complete crap. The disciples never had certificates or degrees, some were clever yes, but the majority were ordinary working peasants [just like you and me]. Men do not make church leaders, God does. Some professional Christians got all their notions and ideas about God by imitating the writings and the deeds of others. They are just not the genuine article.
The second best Christian I ever met had never been to a church in his life. The best ever Christian I ever met was a Baptist Pastor. None of his colleagues liked him, he was absolutely gossiped and slandered and generally despised by his fellow Revs.
Are you God's man or woman? Just ask Him if he wants you. You will not be surprised at His answer, just very amazed that you didn't ask Him sooner. Spend some time with God, sit quietly and have a chat. Examine carefully how your life changes after five or six earnest chats with Him. Are you calmer? More in control? Are you understanding and treating others better? Do you need more guidance? Ask God who you should ask. Ideas and thoughts will come to you. Remember this is a journey of faith you are making. You know how you feel. You know if you are content with yourself or not. You know when your life is fulfilled or hollow. As well as faith this is a journey of experience and beliefs. The Bible is full of Visions, Prophets, Angels, miracles, changed lives, portents etc. The church today does not seem to believe in any of these things anymore. It is far too uptight about being on the back foot about any of this spiritual stuff. This journey is about understanding the incessant battle taking place between good and evil. It is about choosing allies and knowing who the enemy is. Christians are literally the Salvation Army!